run the redlights.

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters

my brain's not functioning at full-speed so i'm not really analytical today. which in a way it's kinda good that my imagination does not run havoc today, so i didn't go on a freak-out mode in the afternoon. was partially kept occupied with anna and ah-ma. 7 times in 3 weeks, worse still, it has been 3 days straight. i swear this is nuts. i've been there (in town) on sat, sun and mon. on sat, was with xiang while on sun was with delia, ah-ma and xiang and today, i was so unwilling so i let ah-ma and anna go check for themselves. haha. anna's complaining that it's unfair that when she goes, nothing's there. haha, it isn't my fault! sunday was um, eventful? we bought stuff for guides camp at ps, headed to wheelock to collect xiang's phone that she sent for repairs on sat and went to eat (again). haha it was quite amusing actually, delia says i don't know how to order macs properly. haha.
okay i'm fully aware of the situation but i'm choosing to play dumb. that's what xiang and me do best anyways. haha i don't want to accept the "truth" 'cause i don't think i can handle it.. i think i'm just going to live in dreamland. haha.

let your heart out.

i was hyper just now. was being the operative word here. i was crapping so much with deb just now during and after guides and we were all acting so immaturely but it was fun. was, that's the past. i managed to stay in a good mood all throughout today until now. blah. i need to psych myself somemore to get myself into a good mood again. i'm gonna have fun, with or without you.

let your heart out.

gosh i've been going to town so often nowadays. haha, i didn't plan on going there today though. we were supposed to be packing the relief items from 10-4! and apparently, there was an afternoon shift and they didn't need so much help. so we only helped for an hour!
petrina, mabel, szeling, ah-ma, xiang and i met up for breakfast at macs first. we were doing funny stuff like using honey to draw smiley faces, haha. mabel cuts the hotcakes in shapes likes stars and crescents very professionally! haha, she created this "masterpiece" with honey all around it.
anyways after going to guide hq, headed down to lido to catch flightplan with xiang, szeling, mabel and petrina. oh man, it's been such a long time since i last when to lido to watch a movie. i'm pretty sure the last one i caught there was lilo and stitch with yunsan and terrie. haha, yes, it's been that long 'cause we usually go to cine. but xiang wanted to go to lido for a particular reason. crazy girl. we end up going there every week.
the movie's plot was quite good although i spent parts of the movie half hidden behind the bag of popcorn that i was holding. that's just me when i watch action/thriller/horror movies. haha.
after the movie, ate lunch at macs again even though breakfast was macs. guess who insisted on eating on macs? haha. shopped around at heeren after that. we saw xinyuan! haha yeah and later i saw geraldine.

i act like a self-confessed spoilt brat when there's simply no other action to take. and you can't blame me for acting this way, my reactions are the result of what you'd rather. maybe you don't realize it just yet but there's more to it. much more.
i came to the conclusion last wed that either way, it's inevitably gonna cause a strain and it'll affect me more than it affects you.

10 vs 1 and counting.

let your heart out.

well isn't this ironic. my worst subject for the midyear has become my best subject for final year. haha. my a math barely scraped through during the midyears, i scored exactly 50 on the dot. and now, i'm very satisfied with my current a math marks. from c6 to a2! =) at least one of my subject's improving! i'm thankful for passing all my sciences even though i'm aware that the passes are just mediocre. and don't get me started on my ss. it was horrid. just pulled my combine humans down the drain. i hope my geog and eng marks aren't that bad, i'm banking on them for my l1r5 to be better!

went church to do rosary today and later went town with nat and geraldine. nat bought her top from topshop after much delibration. haha. found out that the zara kids skirts are nice and cheap, considering that i can actually fit into the skirts. haha. i was supposed to meet my mum at marina but 'cause i kept delaying, ended up eating sakae at wheelock instead. haha, at least i got my weekly fix of sushi! =)

let your heart out.

post exam activites! [no, not the sch's one]
tue
xiang, deb, ah-ma, anna, nina, gina and i went town to catch corpse bride. it was okay, not that good. xiangliang's and xiangyi's entourage of 12 accompanied them to goldheart to watch them pierce their ears! haha. we pretty much crowded the entire shop. we ate lunch then nina and gina left. we walked all the way for xiang's dessert and anna's coke. haha. deb and ah-ma left after that and anna, xiang and i continued shopping for a while..

wed
melissa came over! haha, we had a lot of catching up on.

thu
deb, ah-ma, xiang, melissa and i went iceskating! according to xiang, before thu, the last time we went iceskating was on feb 5! haha, why can she remember such rubbish but not more important things? anyways, it was fun, we were all pulling ah-ma along. haha. i can't turn! anyways, went for lunch and headed to debbie's house to do the cards for farewell after that.

sat
xiang and i went to yishun first 'cause the discounted espirit shop is there. haha, she bought two skirts. the black skirt was nice but it was too short! anyways, the stuff there really is cheap compared to usual prices at espirit. we endured the train ride back to orchard to meet yunsan. haha went for dessert again. xiang's strawberry sundae and their coke. haha. i was daring yunsan to go buy the happy meal in that advertisment tune since she could pull it off again well. anyways, yun san was being very crappy. and i was calling them "ass" and "idiots". haha sorry, didn't mean it, it was just an reflex reaction. haha. walked to taka so yunsan could buy her earrings from perlini silver. and for all things, they had a hello kitty fest at taka. so naturally, i was pulled to go in 'cause chan xiangyi adores her hello kitty and woo yun san adores her "booboo". we got balloons there, pink hello kitty ones to be exact. haha, i gave mine to xiang. and later on, we kept using the balloons to hit each other. haha, we were nonsensical. i took pictures for ys with her "booboo". haha. grabbed more food and headed home after that.

haha, it's been a whole lot of fun after the exams, dreading results tmr.

let your heart out.

bumping the previous post back up. today's post is after it.

"to forgive and forget", that's commonly heard enough. sometimes though, forgiving and forgetting may not be anywhere on the horizon. i think one of the factors that influences whether a person is able to forgive and forget is the amount of pain inflicted on that person. be it emotional or physical, it's still pain. many would say that emotional hurt cuts more deeply than physical. i guess it's true and that emotional and physical hurt combined together would be immense. in a way, it also depends if the inflicter was deliberate. i'm not quite sure if it would hurt more if the hurt was deliberate but it would be more cruel if it was, don't you think? but i guess what's the ultimate worse if the inflicter does not feel remorseful or regretful at all. that kind of person would totally be intolerable. then there's those people who aren't totally involved but yet, still are. contradicting in a way but you could call them bystanders. not being able to do much but wanting to prevent an impending disaster. just food for thought.

[today's post was partially formed in my head on my way home]
i think i'm becoming immune to failure. why can't i be immune to other feelings then? despite the many occasions, i'm still not immune to it, unfortunately. i'm starting to think that i ought to help myself instead. that sounds selfish and self-centred but i'm starting to lose my willpower and motivation to help. if it can even be considered helping in the first place. i like going to church, i feel a sense of peace when i'm there, like everything's alright, at least for a while.
exams have ended. there's a sense of relief but i'm not overjoyed. the nightmare has just began. and if i don't help myself soon, it's just gonna get worse.

let your heart out.

6 and a 1/2 down, 2 and a 1/2 left. we can do it! =)

let your heart out.

why why why. would someone be just so kind as to turn back time? this morning would do. this morning was perfect, no worries, no cares. i really felt a sense of closure to my question during mass. i don't get why my two best friends are so damn soft-hearted. or blind. would someone just help to shake both of them awake? wait. that's what i'm supposed to do right? okay, so why am i trying to accomplish the near impossible. urgh.

all the best to everyone for their final year's!

let your heart out.

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